God I'm lazy, I haven't had "time" to write any posts for the last couple of days. Other than the fact that I was doing a lot of things, that isn't an excuse! I suppose I was kind of busy doing stuff. Well, more like finishing off assignments that I had to hand in today that I didn't get around to handing in. So hopefully I remember their email addresses so I can email them in my work and they will mark it. Hopefully. Other than these few assignments that I've neglected until the end of the school year, I have finished school for another year. I think I've repeated myself like five times, but it is fun to say I've finished school for 9 weeks! Gasp on that.

So anyway, I'll recount this past week in one post. So wednesday, instead of doing nothing the whole day, I was forced to get up around 7:30 to get to school by 8 and have a chemistry exam. Though, the exam wasn't as hard as I thought, I kind of knew the majority of the test. I missed out on like a couple of questions, they were only ones that I couldn't work out some equations. Other than that it was pretty easy, hopefully I'm not being cocky and I did pretty well in that test. Seeing as wednesday was my birthday, I was kind of expecting the worst from some people (mainly sian). I thought it started off alright because I didn't see her until I just went into my exams. Well, I was upstairs with nick and terry (oh and kate) and they were studying whilst I was making a pain in the ass of myself (confusing them with little acronyms I had made up). We all made our way down about 10 minutes before the exam, and before I had even hit the stairs, I heard sian say "have you seen jarryd upstairs?" whoever she was talking to said I was walking down the stairs and she proceeded to scream out happy birthday. Grr. People don't understand the concept OF KEEPING THINGS LIKE THAT A SECRET. Fuck, it annoyed the shit out of me. So then everyone that didn't know about my birthday was saying happy birthday and shit. Even people I don't talk to. I didn't acknowledge the majority of them, and I proceeded to smack sian really hard with my metal ruler. Yeah, take that and a bag of chips.

So anyway, nick, daryl and I got really bored and after the exam we were planning on going to the movies, like straight after. We had no idea what movie we were going to see, but it was going to be a movie. We planned on going to watch The Grudge, but there was already a session on, so we had to wait until like 1 before we could go and watch it. In the mean time though, the only thing daryl had on mind, was to get his xbox and play it on my big tv (more like my families, but it's mine to you). That was going to be extra boring, because there was going to be 3 people playing halo 2. That game gets a little boring after a while, a good game, but extremely boring for only three people. I think the "theme" for this story is that the grudge rules. I've only ever jumped in a scary movie, and that was because it was at 11pm at night and it was a "true" story (texas chainsaw massacre). Now we saw this movie around 1pm, and fuck me, I jumped so many times in that movie. It is one of those movies, that has an extremely scary face jammed onto the screen after watching someone walk into some dingy little room. But by god it was a good movie. The start of the movie made me wish I wasn't in there, coupled with the fact that I was on a sugar high, the movie did wonders for me. Every now and then I'd find something funny (to me at least) to say, and I'd have to tell someone, and because the closest person to me was like 3 chairs away, I had to say it loud enough for daryl to hear, but the people behind me could hear it as well. So everytime I'd find a funny remark, or say something terrible should happen (like someone's head should explode, or the bitch to jump out of the tv ring still) the people behind me would piss themselves laughing as well. Needless to say I amused myself and those around me. I suggest you go and see the movie in the cinemas, or wait until it comes out on dvd and watch it when it is completely dark. I think I wasted mum's free movie ticket wisely if you ask me.

Nick's party! I had fun there, though, I always seem to have more fun at parties. Overall it was a good party, though it took forever for anyone to really turn up. Fair enough though, it was something that was only thought up a couple of days ago, and the majority of people that were there don't go to dripstone anymore. It didn't matter though, there was still ample amount of people by 9. The usual "crew" turned up, craig brought around charles, troy and tyson. Then it was hayley and kirsty mob to turn up, and eventually some more people that I didn't know turned up. I just ignored them the majority of the night. Lala and stacy turned up too, so I had fun arguing with lala the majority of the night. People were coming and going throughout the night. When daryl turned up though, he spent his time hanging around with kirsty and hayley, up until hayley left and kirsty was with craig, then all of a sudden he was sitting around doing.. nothing. He didn't talk to anyone the majority of the night, I kind of left him to his own misery, just incase I was going to be engulfed by his wallowing. Speaking of, I was complimented like twice that night. I was so proud of myself. The first time was when we were sitting out the back and were talking about something, and all of a sudden I was told that I was really funny and that I make people laugh. So I felt good for a whole ten minutes. Then! I was commented on my driving by kirsty when I drove her home (she was really smashed, and I was the only sober one with a license). It wasn't really a compliment, but an insult to terry. She said that I drove so much better than him, but anyone could seeing as he speeds around corners doing 60. At the end, I think I came home around 1:45 and didn't get to sleep until like 3 in the morning (I was busy playing with my new present), and I had to get up at like 9:30 to go to school one final time and get my yearbook. So needless to say I was half asleep on the ride to school, coming back, and I was even nearly asleep walking bare footed through the mall at school. This was all while everyone was at recess, so they saw a half asleep kid walking without any shoes to get a book, and leave again.

I think I left the best bit until last. Presents! A lot of people were like "wtf" when they asked what presents I got for my birthday, and I replied "none". I just don't celebrate my birthday. Next year maybe, only because I'm going to get smashed, and if we all go to schoolies, my first drink will be at schoolies. Of course when some people ask what I got, I'd lie to them, but others I'll say what I got. Well, wednesday night after work (yes, I worked on my birthday, it's just another day) I was given a new wallet which I desperately needed. It's a cool leather one. So now I've made the transition from a childish cotton (at least, I think it is..) with a little zipped and velcro, to a: MAN'S WALLET! And! I got the bestest thing too. Seeing as I hadn't asked for anything for my birthday, mum said we would go shopping on thursday afternoon. Of course I was going to force mum into buying me HL2: Collectors Edition and the keyboard/mouse combo. I had told her a couple of weeks before hand how much they would each cost. But when we got there, mum was like "I'm not buying both, you pick one or the other". So I opted for mum to buy the dearer one so it wouldn't be as hard for me to buy the game. Well, mum still didn't want to pay $169 on one birthday present. Both parents are against buying shit for my computer, so I was forced into forking out $40 to pay for my own birthday present. Pictures are: Keyboard is here -- Mouse is here -- Station is here. Notice anything? YES! The lack of wires! Go go wireless. *pets wireless goodness*. And, the mouse has rechargeable batteries, which is why there is a little docking station, so they can be recharged in the mouse. Weee! Money well spent.

Well I'm sitting here oh so anxious for tomorrow to be here. Oh yes, I can't wait for a chemistry exam to be done and then I have to worry about doing three other assignments in only a few hours. Joy to the world, school has nearly finished. I could say the lack of updates are a result of me studying. Well, the study thing is a reason why I haven't been able to update. I have thoughts of lots (thus the longer previous post) but I have had no time this past week up until now, to update. Plus, I can't get to the internet still. So that would be a fair enough reason for not updating, but when I do write a post, I have to wait for ages to find a way to post it. But I should have more time for the next 9 weeks. So hoorah! Oh yes, this is what I call chemistry study. I thought it was useful for my own learning.. I think. I managed to kill the two duracell batteries though, hehe. But I burnt by finger on them, so I suppose they deserve death.

I know I'm going to regret telling certain people about my birthday later on today. Hopefully I'll be able to get in and out of the exam without people pestering me about my birthday. I mean, come-on, it's just another normal day. I don't really need to be told that I'm older than I was 24 hours previously. On the birthday note, I'm heading around to Nick's place for his birthday (oh the irony) on thursday.

What else. Ha! You know how normally when you go into exams, the supervisor normally says to write down your name/number or whatever on the front of the sheet. Well, in the math exam this morning I kind of forgot to do that part. I only remembered just before I started my bio exam. Now, I can only hope to hell that either I did write my name on there and I forgot that I wrote it on there, or that ms herrod saw my name not on there and wrote it down for me. It's either I worry about it until I get my results, or I ask ms tan tomorrow (that is, if she is there) and hope to hell that I'm the only dickhead who forgot to write their name on the exam. Otherwise, fuck.

Nothing overally exciting has happened since.. monday. I suppose that would be because I've barely seen those who annoying the shit out of me, and when I have seen them, I've ignored them, or insulted them. Either one, probably both. I can see my holidays are going to be much like they have every year. I might find some time to do something in my busy schedule of doing nothing. Either way I'm going to be bored. I might go to work on my photoshop "skills", or at least learn something knew so I can waste my time doing that next year and not school work (gasp!) Hopefully I won't be to bored, and that I will be working a fair bit so I can some money and buy stuff. Speaking of photoshop, which which moon would you choose? I was playing around when I did them, so they look pretty shitty. I'll master the look later.

Wee! Shortest post for a while. Go me. I suppose I have nothing to crap on about and seeing as nothing ever happens at my house (other than fights), I will talk about nothing for a long time!

Well, it was the end of year 11 on friday. Technically it was, though I still have 3 more days left for exams, year 11 courses have officially ended. Yay for that! What better way to end it by bludging the last day. That what was basically done, though.. I have been doing it for the majority of classes this past week, but still. The thought of me being "allowed" to bludge caused me to bludge more. So what happened on friday? Well, I think I planned on doing very little work, and gathering myself up for the exams that are on this week. I'm not all too worried that school has ended, I think I'm going to need the next 9 weeks (I think, or at least something close to that) to compose and prepare myself for next year. I do know that next year I'm going to be doing stuff in class and not sitting around wasting time. This year was very much a kick in the ass in relation to the amount of work I wasn't doing this year. It wasn't that I didn't understand the shit, it was that I just didn't want to do it. The majority of it was boring, and now why would I bother doing boring stuff? Oh wait, we are forced to.

I don't understand the mentality of many people at my school. The majority of them are all cry here and cry there that this is the last time they are going to see each other. Understandable that they have finished year 10 and that they can leave school legally now. But for those who aren't leaving and have to survive another 2 years of school have no "reason" to whine. I mean, jesus, it isn't like they are leaving the country and changing into different timezones and that communication is impossible. Even people in my grade were like that. They wanted to do the whole "I've finished school, let's dress up as if we aren't going to see these people ever again". You do that in year 12 when you actually have finished school and you do go separate ways, not when you still have another year to spend with the people you have "exposed" yourself to. I think the extent that I went to "dress up" was something unexpected. Fat Jack dressed up as santa (the irony is delicious) and he wasn't going to wear his beard thingy, so my sexual oriented train of thought went to the first obvious use to it. Because it was connected by some elastic, and it could be stretched, and that the thing was shaped in a triangle. So I decided to wear it around my groin region and I walked around with it on acting if nothing was out of the ordinary. Of course I got the weird looks and the laughs, but indeed I had won the dressing up period of the school day.

I think the whole never seeing those you don't care about is a wonderful concept. Yeah, it is going to be a sad moment when I realise that I won't see the majority of my good friends ever again. Things like that happen all the time, you see people you love walk away. I know I can still talk to the majority of them either by the internet or on the phone. Things will be a lot different in a year from now though, but still. Speaking of those I love. Nat and I went to get a mcfeed a lunch time on friday (it was more like I wanted a mcflurry to eat during biology), and we stopped in front of the doors to the eatery in casuarina. I have a habit of just looking around because I can, and it would normally be a dazed look, not looking at anything in particular. Upon feasting my eyes (eww, that sounds.. eww..) on the people inside, I saw Katerina in there. My heart fluttered for the moment that she might see me and come out and talk to us. But the flutter was smashed to pieces when I saw her holding some tall guys hand and was almost being carried by him. I was lucky that the car was dark, otherwise nat would have seen my eyes almost disappear (he will know now, won't he!). I sat there staring for a second, then realised what a dickhead I must look like. Here I was with my hand in my pockets trying to find money and the face that I had on was one of despair. Luckily this was at lunch time and I only had two more lessons left, otherwise my whole day would have been shit in a bucket. I'm not too sure whether or not what I saw was true, but I'm never going to know am I?

So today and yesterday consisted mainly of me sitting in my room much like I did the other weekend. Sitting around with the aircon on and me trying to finish off assignments and study at the same time. I'll let you know of my exam time table because I can.

Monday: 8:30-10:40 - History
12:30-2:40 - English (trial exam, not worth anything)
Tuesday: 8:30-11:10 - Math
12:30-2:10 - Biology
Wednesday: 8:30-10:40 - Chemistry

See that? I have a total of 5 exams, and I'm about prepared for.. 3 of them. I have no idea about what I should learn about in chemistry, I have a slight idea of what I should know for the biology exam. I'm aiming to pass all of them, just so my parents get the fuck off my back. I'm going to welcome the holidays with open arms. Not only will school be finished, but I will be finally free of the grasp that my parents have me in. I'm not going to be able to update my blog for the next week, because I'm not going to be able to get on the internet. I might be able to sneak in a quick 10 minutes at school before my exam is on, but I doubt it very much.

What else. Oh yeah, the other day, I think I forgot to mention this the other day. I so remember writing something about it though, I just can't remember where I was doing it. But anyway, the other day jade was having trouble getting out her tongue ring, so she spend like a whole lunch time (or was it recess?) trying to get it out. It was asked whether someone had a pair of pliers and Renee was there to help, and she and jade walked off into the girls toilets to try and undo it. Next thing, you hear screams and melinda running from the toilets saying "There is blood!" So, I jumped up to see the sight of Renee with a pair of pliers making jade bleed. Now who wouldn't want to see that? The fact that they were in the girls toilets didn't hinder me, so I walked straight in there to see nothing had happened! I was jipped! Jipped damnit. I think I chose the wrong time to leave the toilets, as the moment I left the toilets, I left in front of a whole bunch of girls. I didn't really care though, but I'm quite sure I made some of them embarrassed that there was a guy in their toilets. Believe me, I laugh in their faces. One of them, Ellen, asked why I was in there, and all I replied was "blood", so since then she has been hanging out in our common room. A little weird, but cool++.

So what are you all planning on getting me for my birthday? Come on people, it's already the 21st. I've been told by my mum that after exams, we will go "shopping", so really, she means that we are going to harvey norman to buy me Half Life 2: Collectors Edition and buy me the keyboard/mouse combo. So hooray, on the thursday morning/afternoon I shall hopefully be playing hl2.

Fuck me, I have a lot more to talk about, and I've already exceeded way too many words (my history essay was something like 300 words less than this post. I know that if I'm not going to get it all out now, I'm going to forget about it. Oh well, I'm sure something exciting will happen in my exams (I think not) or that I'll remember what I wanted to whine about in this post. So until tomorrow night when I write up another post!

Say hello to me! I bought my amp home yesterday after a drive into harvey norman and a long wait in harvey norman. About harvey norman first though. When I got there I paid the layby off and I was "forced" to wait around while another woman had to go and find my amp. It isn't all that interesting, but while I was waiting around for it, the guy that originally served me and pointed me to the sony one walked by me. He obviously remembered me, because he gave me the "I know you" look as he walked by. I remembered who the hell he was, but I didn't say anything, so I left him wondering if I remembered him. So while I was in harvey norman (well, it was before I paid off my amp) I wandered over to the computer section and looked for half life 2, namely the collectors editions. So I find the normal one and I was like, what the fuck, where is the collectors edition?! So I wondered around looking at the computers and monitors, when I see a giant gordan freeman picture stuck up almost opposite where you walk in with the normal half life 2 and the collectors edition. I felt a little stupid at that point, but I got over it. What was better, the collectors edition (which includes half life 2, half life: source and counterstrike: source) is only $129, so if I don't get it for my birthday, I'll have enough money by then to buy it and play it during the holidays!

So I was thinking before I opened my amp, I was going to take photos of it being opened, but I was in too much of a rush, so I just ripped it open and I've only just taken photos. I spent around 2 hours this afternoon moving speakers, putting speakers in, adjusting speaker cable length, that kind of thing so I can have a 4.1 speaker setup (I don't have a centre speaker yet). So now I have the two big speakers that were running outside (which was replaced by our winnings :-), so now I have those sitting next to my bed, and my two smaller sony speakers up the front near my desk. How about I let the pictures speak for themselves. Oh, and yeah, sorry for the flash in amp-back_1.jpg, that was the only non-fuzzy one I took.


It's the left hand side of the amp (the back part!). Look at all those plugs.


Oh, it's the other side, imagine that.


This would be how the amp is controlled. See how it says PLII MUS? I can change that display to whatever I want!


Those would be the original speakers in the lounge room. They are about a metre tall and sound loud++.


That would be my "workstation", it is normally littered with books and assignments due in the next day, but I cleaned them all off. See the sub underneath the desk and next to my makeshift bin?! And, there is suppose to be another speaker on the left side of the desk, but I managed to get it out of the picture.

Yay, tomorrow is the last day of year 11! Go me! But also, tomorrow is the last day to get in 5 more assignments. Well, only really 1, and the other 4 (english and chemistry) both have nice teachers. Ms Pikoulos is being really extra nice, because I'm suppose to have two assignments in by tomorrow because my portfolio has to be sent away. She said that if she checked her email and found my assignments in there then she would include them in my portfolio (and mark them aswell), now how nice can she get? So I have to get them hopefully done by tonight, or even by friday night, just so she doesn't have to mark on a sunday.

Well it seems like I have been getting some sleep lately, and that seems to be a bad thing. I don't know, but whenever I have a "good" sleep, when I wake up I feel more tired than I did before. Like now. It's nearly 1 in the morning and only an hour ago I was nearly ready to drop dead. That hour ago feeling has lasted all day and it's annoying as shit. It seems I've gone past tired and I've just crept up alongside being awake again, but I know tomorrow (or should I say later today) I'm going to be really, really tired. But oh well, I'm looking forward for what I'm going to do today. After school, and when dad comes home with his car, I'll be off to find some money (hopefully I have enough, I've yet to really work out if I have the total amount needed in my bank) and then pay off my amp. I just worked it out then, going by me having like $45 in my bank, that I'm going to be $4 short of $139. What the fuck. Damn shit fuck. Hopefully I'll get more money than what I thought I would last week and that it will be in there by the time I go and get money out. If it isn't I'm going to be really pissed off, because I've been looking forward to playing music loud with my sub going.

Talking about being pissed off, I went to see what kind of things they were selling for half life 2. If you hadn't noticed, it was released today (unlocked, I just can't buy the bastard), and I was looking forward to seeing how much the collectors edition was going to be selling for, or something like that. I think it was just that I wanted to touch the box and I'd be set until my birthday. But that didn't happen. So grr. I had forgotten that they were suppose to release it going by american time, and when I went to see what they had, it was only like 10pm on the 15th in seattle. I was kind of sad because I was a day early, and now that I've been reading the reviews and the "behind the scenes" articles on it, I wish I could be playing it now. I know it is going to be a bad thing for me to get it this week and next week because all I'd be doing is play it, and I find no room to study or finish off my assignments. I'd find time, but the time would be around this time in the morning and I'd be hard pressed to do a good job on it.

So I found out what I was getting for legal today, only because there has been four assessable assignments in for a whole term, and I had finished the last one on sunday night and handed in it. I find out I got a 16/20 for the class, I'd probably have a 17 for the class if the bitch of a teacher that marked my second last assignment knew what the fuck she was doing. It was obvious she knew nothing, because she said I had to place the date I view the website in the bibliography which is crap, because... it's pointless, YOU STUPID WHORE. Oh, and she was marking from a sheet which made absolutely no sense at all. So I just gave up on her. I know my 15+ marks in english, legal, and history are going to be ignored when my parents read my report at the end of the term. They are going to be like, oi, why did you only just pass math, chemisty and biology? I'd just reply, because I'm lazy. Then I'd have the whole school and computer lecture again. Because I asked them if they'd buy me half life 2 for my birthday, they'd say (after reading my test results) that I shouldn't be spending my time on the computer, and that I should be doing my assignment. What the fuck? I have like, a whole of 8 weeks of nothing, what am I going to do during then? If it was in the middle of the year, then maybe. But not when all my classes are finished and I have to start a new course next year. They have it set in their mind that I start year 12 courses at the end of this year, and that the last couple of weeks are there because year 12 starts next year. Well, you are wrong. They may do it elsewhere, but there is still stuff being taught to me at the last couple of weeks (which is stupid, whatever happened to the time to study for the exams?).

Well, I now know that we are getting an xbox for christmas. Today I caught my mum shopping for carry cases for the xbox (I was at work and she thought I was suppose to be home, hehe). It wasn't the kind of quick pick up and see what it feels like, it was the pick up, see how much it is, see what other colours there are, preceed to think about it and put it back. Believe me, if we don't end up getting an xbox, I'm going to rip apart the ps2 and force it to work.

So I might go and sleep for a little bit until I have to get back up and go to school.

Well, I've just spent this past weekend doing nothing but sit in front of my computer in the aircon! But really, I did sit in front of my computer for all day saturday and all day today, but I wasn't doing it because I could, but I was doing the majority of my assignments. I managed to finish off 2 of my english assignments and my legal assignment, only missing out on doing my history essay because I forgot to research for some information about it. So I'm either going to have to think up some insane excuse to get myself out of doing it for another day, or tell ms herrod the truth (and show her over 4000 words done in three assignments). I really need to invest in a new chair for myself when I sit at my computer, because the one I use now just is not cutting it. My back has only just started to hurt after about 24 hours of sitting in the same spot. That just does not cut it, I need to be able to last more than that in the one spot. Along with my back, my fingers are starting to say "hey bitch hole, we are hurting down here", and wait.. so are my ears from my music. But I will get over that with tonight's sleep, if not I'm going to be in pain tomorrow morning.

So anyway, nat's party on friday! I always knew I was going to have fun there, besides from the amount of cigarette (and other smoke...POTHEADS) smoke wofting around the place. I wasn't at all too surprise I was slightly stoned from all the second smoke hanging around. So anyway, got there around 5:30 just waiting to go for a drive around in nat's mum's car (which is a mercedes, gg), making sure that his parents don't know of course. But nooo, sian had to ruin it all and say he wasn't allow to take his mum's car for a drive. Oh well, we managed to go out and buy some dinner before any stupid people rocked up, and what happened the moment we get back? Fat jack rocks up, so we all finished our food quick so he had to eat his dinner by himself (at least, that was what I did..) Then some other people rocked up and nat and those people got stoned, so I ventured into the games room and played some pool until ray rocked up. Now this ray kid would happen to be madeline's boyfriend, and from what I hear he is really weird. No, he isn't weird at all you retards, he is a fucking immature piece of shit. I was playing a game against david and all he did was make 3 year old noises (you know the ones, farting noises from the mouth when someone bends over.) I think after the third time he had done that to me (and david) I was ready to stab the fuck in the face. I think he did get the point that I didn't like him, because he kept on trying to talk to me (asked me questions like "was I aiming for that one?") and all I did was give a half assed nod or a grunt. He didn't speak to me the rest of the night, thank god.

I think I wandered more than I sat down, eventually, nick, terry, martin and alan rocked up with their piss, so I sat around and talked to them for a while. I had no idea where nat was at the time, last I saw of him, he was going up the stairs with sian. With nick turning up, the eventual crew also turned up, you know, the real "hardcore" stoners (tyson, and troy mob) and then kristy and hayley turned up. Anyway, later on in the night when renee turned up, we were all sitting outside waiting for their weed to be delivered.. uihh, I mean.. smeh, it was weed. These two guys (they looked to be about 17-18) rode by and all of a sudden they were inside talking to people in there. Well what the fuck, I managed to find out that they knew some people in there so they just rocked up. As the party started to die down (this was about the time when the majority of people were either too stoned to move, or they were too smashed that they passed out) the rest of us were sitting outside just talking, when litsa began "hitting" on nick. I dunno whether she was drunk, or that something else that I can't think of, but she was basically hanging off the side of nick's arm the rest of the night I was there. I thought it was funny, but I kept that to myself whilst she was there. I eventually gave up trying to talk to her and just ignored her the rest of the night.

Hm, what else happened. There was also suppose to be a fight between jade and kylie, but that never happened. We were so jipped at that point in time. Oh, I had a "dance" with kristy, hayley, gabbe, and some other girls that were there, so yay me. Well, it was more like a techno like dance, but whatever. I had fun. With dealing with some people when they are drunk, I really hope that I'm not going to be that arrogant when I'm pissed. Seriously, after fat jack had drunk a whole bottle of baileys by himself (ooh, alcoholic) he was acting like an absolute dickhead (hah, more of) and making a total ass of himself. Hopefully I'm going to be a sedate drunk. But who's to know, I might be a roudy one aswell. I'll find out next year.

I was going to go and pay the rest of my amp off today, but I wasn't allowed to use the car because I had to have finished my homework before I was allowed to go. I suppose that is a good thing, because hopefully by then I'll have more money (and enough) in my bank to just pay it off without having to sell my other amp at crash converters. Speaking of crash converters, my sister broke the ps2 (well, she leaves the controller on the ground and I walked past the thing and kicked up the controller cord because I couldn't see it) and basically that hard jerk stopped the cd drive from reading discs at all now. I don't know whether it is because it's near christmas and they don't have anything for either of us yet, they are hinting (well, not really hinting, more like dropping logs on our faces) about buying an xbox. They were originally going to buy another ps2, but I persuaded otherwise. So now we might be getting an xbox with halo (I think it comes with halo 2 aswell) for christmas. So hooray on that, I get another computer in the house. I'm not allowed to try and fix the ps2 though, even though I've already removed the warrenty-void-if-removed sticker, so I might as well go ahead and open it up and fix it somehow. But oh well, I'll get to it when we get the xbox.

Right about now, my whole body is starting to hurt, including my bottom lip *removes the plastic fork from it*. I might go ahead and try to sleep some before I go to school. Oh yeah, 24 hours left until half life 2 is released!

We had that remembrence day on today, I'm not too sure whether or not the school was completely "prepared" for the thing. Well, it's really a thing where on the 11th month, of the 11th hour that you are supposed to do a minute silence (normally ends up with me laughing at the awkward silence, today was no exception) where you.. stand for a minute.. in silence. I hate these "mourn" type of days, where you think of those who died in the war way back when. Really pointless in my eyes. Ok, yes they did die for their country (most voluntarily though) and that they have made what australia is today. Now, I'd do the mourn thing for the first few months, maybe a couple of years. But decades after the bastards have died? (That is going to hit someone's spot sooner or later) You can't continue with life if you can't get over something (oh wow, the irony..). I know when I'm dead, I'm going to want people mourning me like, a couple of weeks after I die, and then everyone get over the fact that I'm dead and that nothing will bring me back. I'm extremely insensitive when it comes to people dying. Oh, and I didn't think the minute was ever going to end. As I was saying before, I don't think the school was very organised, because they only just called it over the PA around 11:05 (oh no, 5 minutes late!). Now when you normally tell someone to stop working, and stand for a minute silence, normally after a minute someone says thank you and shit, and tells you to continue what was happening before. They did, the stupid whores. So we were all standing there (me and my biology class) waiting for someone to say anything. So I broke the ice by saying it was taking a while.

I've had multitudes of awkward silences today, as today I had one with daryl's mum. I had been over at his place playing some CO-OP Halo 2 (games rules by the way, incredibly hard to control, but extremely fun) until he had to go to work, and seeing as though I had my bike, bag and sister, I wasn't about to give her a life home. So we got a lift with daryl's mum. First off to Kmart to drop him off to work, and the trip back was.. needless to say, really tense. You know how there is always a kind of non-talk time between friend's parents, well, this seemed to be one of them. I opted for the back seat, because I wasn't going to be able to handle the it (I'm such a chicken bitch). But anyway, I got over it and we managed to get home in one piece.

So I've been sitting here thinking about how the hell I'm going to get the rest of my school year over with and pass with a good grade. I've been such the lazy bastard this year. Normally I'm kind of lazy, you know, do the assignments a few days before they are due in and all. This year has been worse, I've managed to find a way to fly past the due dates of the majority of my classes (excluding math) and hand things in weeks after they are due. Some things I'll do the day they are due in, or the night before and have them handed in, and I'd normally get a fairly high mark for them. Well, those assignments that I have to do some english or history in, where I don't have to do any working out. Along with these assignments, I have forgotten to study for my trial history essay tomorrow morning, which, going by the time I'm wasting now and in the morning, I will have no time to read up about, unless I get the exam pushed back half an hour. Then only 20 minutes after that, I have an even more thrilling chemistry test on redox reactions, which I know a fair bit about, but I just can't remember it. A pity that. So I'm going to have to kind of fly through the history thing and then study during recess and homeroom for the chemistry one.

I've thought about my lazy habits and how I've procrastinated the fuck out of this year and I think it's time for a change. Yes! A change. I've force nick and daryl to do the same thing. We are all conforming to the habits of those with girlfriends, we are going to be forcing each other to have assignments done in the first day that we get them. I know the first term is going to be something like this, the second term something kind of similar. Then the last two terms are going to be procrastination heaven. But I can't let this happen because next year is my last year of school, and I have some major exams at the end of the year. Thank god some of the most anticipated games have been released around the time of my year 11 exams. Just beeeee-utiful.

So Nat's party is on tomorrow night, and I have no way of getting home. That is, unless terry isn't going to be there. If he is then hey, I have a lift home, but I'm fucked otherwise. I'm fucked because the majority of people there (I lied, all of them) are going to be smashed (or stoned). I have no real desire to ring up my mum at like 1am and say I have no life home and that she has to come and pick me up. It wouldn't be all that bad, because she would come and pick me up, it's just that most of the people at nat's place are going to be outside and staggering around when I leave, so all mum will see is a bunch of drunken teens, and she will think that I'm drunk as well. Gah, hopefully someone with a license is going to be there and not drunk, and not asleep.

So until I'm next on the internet!

It seems like this is the month for dates I suppose. Considering I only have about 2 weeks of school left, the majority of things have to be done by the end of the two weeks, I will have no time to do anything. Seeing as though dad has taken the modem, and probably will for the next few weeks, I should have enough time to do all my assignments. I suppose, I could do the majority of them in one night, but you see, I'll need the internet straight after school to search for info that I'd need. But no, the modem isn't there so no research, so no assignments. Not all of my assignments need them, I'm just using it as an excuse not to do them. Of course the excuse only works on myself seeing as I'm th e only one who really listens to my excuses. So no real time wasted there. I know I'm not going to be able to procrastinate as much as I have this year, as I will be able to next year. But next year (another one of my excuses) I'll have one less class, one less class to do work in, and in extra line to do other work in. So really, I should do well next year (in theory of course).

As I was saying earlier, this month is all about dates. Not the kind when you go out with another and spend time with each other (oh, I can do that?), but more like deadlines. Other than the obvious school dates that is meant to be meet before the exams, there is the ever present gaming dates. Yes, I'm talking about games. Speaking of; Halo 2 was released today! Yay for those with an Xbox, unfortunately for me, I don't have an Xbox, so I'll have to go around to Daryl's place (seeing as he has already a deposit on the game) and play it. More though! We got digital yesterday, so yay for that. Flehlehleh, I know the majority of australia already had it months ago, and I had already played with it beforehand, but still! Better time then any to get digital, and seeing as we have a giant TV, the picture is much clearer now. Much fun to be had with digital for the first few days, that is, until you realise that it's the same as normal cable, just with a few other options and about 150 more channels. Anyway, another game that was released earlier this month was GTA:SA, well, it was really late october that it was released, but that is still earlier this month.. I think. And and and! Half Life 2 is going to be released on the 16th, so another tremendous date to be marked on some calenders. Hooray for that, just in time for my birthday too (and Andrew's, and Zack's birthday as well).

I think Nick said it to me one day, but at the end of every school year, people in school - including people in my year level - become really annoying. I mean, normally they are as annoying as normal, but as we near the end of the year, people become arrogant and plain stupid. I've become more picky about things recently though, it could be that I have exams (there I go again, trying to explain something with an excuse) soon, or that people have been pestering me about my birthday. To be honest, I think it's more of the latter. Ignore, and they shalt follow. Oh, like today. You know how there is always a scape goat for the majority of people's frustrations at school? Well, we aren't cheap in this category. We have a kid called Michael Anderson. More of a scape goat than anyone really thinks of, but no one likes him. When I mean no one, I mean not even the teachers that have some sympathy for the extra-stupid (I have been told it doesn't exist anymore) kids. So anyway, something had been said about him, and I was returning from my visit to Hungry's only to find David "thrusting his groin" towards michael. I think it had started earlier with someone saying michael would take liquid soap into a jail (to make it hard to pick up, Hua Hua Hua) and that kind of opened flood gates for gay jokes. Let me stress the fact that no one likes him, so basically all those in the common room (which is the majority of year 11) were "picking" on him. Minus Daryl because he is a self righteous bastard that doesn't believe in picking on michael because "it's mean".

So anyway, something happened and I added my few remarks, getting more laughs than fat jack's jokes (go me, I'm popular). I think it ended up me manufacturing an insult that he wanted to "replaced David with the drums that he plays with" and he only had one drumstick on him and he was saying something about shoving it up his ass, or something. So I counteracted by saying that (and mind you I was the only one that thought of the sexual innuendo part of it all) he wanted to have gay sex with David. So michael ran off obviously insulted by what I had said, and everyone else in the room. I know that he is going to tell his parents or someone about it all and it's all going to come back onto the people in the common room, and of course no one can lie in that room, so basically they are all going to point fingers at me, while there I would be skillfully saying it wasn't me and that what he said was bullshit. Up until people would have pointed fingers at me, I would lie, until the teacher asked me again, then I'd find it pointless to lie and give in, because if I wasn't going to be backed up some how, then they will all point more fingers at me. So really, the people in that common room suck ass.

So really, the moral of the second part of the story is to never trust in people, never think that they will aid you when you are trying to weasel your way out of getting in trouble. In the end, someone is bound to give up, and bang there goes the end. I don't know what next to celebrate, the fact that these past few posts have been well over 1000 words each and that soon I'm going to hit 50,000 words posted (I think?) or that I'm nearing 60 posts. How about both?

Well, I've had four days (well, it was really less than that, I just hadn't found anything interesting else to write in the post) to think about my state of mind. Obviously I've gotten over it, it was just too hard to expect stuff when I'm angry at my parents. What is annoying, is that I'm over it and yet, dad still can't get over the fact that I'm on the computer the majority of the day. He only just recently gave me the "computers are worthless" lecture (ironically, I was infront of the computer for the first time this week). In that speech, he said something about that computers are tools, and are useless at all (what a load of shit!), and how he knows when I turn it on, and what I download (hooray for him, he can use the administrative panel on XP). He only knows what I download because I can't be bothered hiding what I do now, who cares if he knows what porn I get, I got over my parents knowing when I was like 12. So in other words, I'm going to be "stripped" of my internet "privledges" (that is what else he called the computer, a "privledge and not a right") for the next while. Probably (well, hopefully) until exams have finished. When I mean stripped, I mean, he physically takes away the modem so I can't even get some kind of access to the internet. As Terry pointed out when I told him, some parents ground kids when they have giant arguments, mine take away the internet.

Well my schedule is completely booked out. Last friday I went to Terry's place for a "party", and this saturday (I have yet to ask) I'm going to Nat's place for another party. What Terry's party was originally going to be was just a "few" friends around eating food and watching movies/games, with a few drinks to be had by most people. What happened was a few friends came around and we ate some pizza, while playing some GTA:SA (that games owns) and of course we had some techno going. So yeah, loud music, intense gaming and food are a good combination. Then as time went by, some people left intending on returning but never did (one of them were buzzing on speed), and of course the drunken youths turned up and things kind of picked up again. But of course, the majority of them were either stoned or drunk, so it was pointless on talking to them. Daryl turned up in the middle of it all and we were playing some games until daryl left to flirt with Hayley and Kirsty. I managed to walk around talking to some people, but it was really hard to try and have a conversation with someone smashed and music blaring in the background, so I gave up and sat outside and waited for people to walk by and join me. Much easier that way. I was the designated sober bob of the night (considering I was the only one with a license and wasn't drinking at all), I managed to drive around in Terry's mum's little beast and pick up Nick from home (with a whole carton of alcohol). I had fun though, playing games, talking to people out of school, listening to some music, and eating. Just watching other people when they are drunk trying to do something is even better though. Nat's party is going to be 10 times as worse as Terry's was though. Well, not worse, but better. Much more people are going to be at Nat's place, although not the same people there, it's still going to be a whole lot of drunken youths stumbling around. I just have to organize a way home incase terry isn't going to be there.

I really need to find myself a car though. All this fighting with my parent's left me almost without a car to drive around, so I need to find a car for myself so I don't have to bother with them. I know it is going to be a pain in the ass to try and keep on the road. See, there is my problem, I know I'm not going to be able to keep a car going if I want to buy a whole lot of other shit. So I can either not bother with a car (unless my parents buy me one) and buy everything else I want (which is all computer related), I find a car and get that and not worry with the computer hardware for a long time. Or: I find a way to get more shifts at Kmart and earn more money so I can do both. Seeing as it is near christmas, hopefully I'll be getting more shifts as nightfill, if I don't I might have to find the apparel manager and as her about a position in the apparel side of things (apparel is clothing if you didn't know). I know the manager is looking for people because Daryl told me the other week that she was looking for three people, and only last night he told me that she had only gotten one person. Seeing as the manager only works on a sunday, I should have gone today, but I couldn't have been bothered. Maybe I'll ring next weekend.

So who wishes to either spend $140 or $350 on me for my birthday? I can tell that I'm going to be getting shit all from my parents and that I'm going to be poor by my birthday. I'm already poor as it is, I only have like $50 left in my bank. Though, a plus side to that is that I only have $139 left on my amp, and if I get paid lots during this next week, I'll have my amp by saturday afternoon. So anyway, I asked my mum whether or not she'd rather buy me a keyboard/mouse combo or a dvd burner. Considering the dvd burner is around $350 ($300 from an out of stock store, I think) and the keyboard/mouse is only $139. Maybe I can find some good speakers for her to buy me. Seeing as I'm going to get my amp soon, I think a new set of speakers should do the trick. I think if she had any choice at all, she'd buy me the cheaper one. I really need the mouse now though, seeing as my current mouse has been acting up majorly lately, and my keyboard is really old (and dirty). But if I don't get either of them, you people can donate me some money and I can buy one of them.

Monday morning feels so bad!

Well, things have gotten completely out of hand now. After last night's little spack, I was expecting some kind of message, or similar regarding my access towards the computer. I think something similar has happened before, I think last time, the whole box was missing from it's usual spot so I couldn't get access to it. Well, something "worse" has come, dad has decided that he will take the router. What the fuck? How low can you go, instead of taking the thing that I use, the bastard decides to take the thing that is used to get on the internet. The stupid thing is, that he left the computer where it was, making it more easier to fuck things up. Instead, I opted to just unplugging things with force and hoping that things would be bent in the process. Unless it happens again, when next time I'll clear things out so nothing works at all. I can just see things becoming worse and worse as the days go on.

With the ever present parent-teacher interviews on tonight, things did not help at all. Of course, they went to plan: make sure that the parents know about my habits at school and hopefully things will reverberate towards the kid and making them do stuff. This has happened over the past few interviews, and of course, I never bother to attend the meetings because I know things will go sour, including most teachers giving me the "I'm ashamed of you jarryd" look. Or even worse, the teachers ask what is the matter, and why I have been acting the way I have been. So yeah, I didn't bother doing the whole interview thing, and of course, I had an argument (over the phone mind you) with my mum about me going to the interviews. I eventually won, I think.

So yeah, the inevitable conversation after the interview was the only thing I was really dreading about the whole thing. Normally it would go with going through what each teacher said, you know, something has been bothering jarryd, but he has been doing work (I don't see the problem then). Then it's a talk about whether something is pissing me off and that it is reflecting in my marks and the teachers comments. It transverses from what the teacher said, to whether or not I'm enjoying what I do at school (I just sit there and not help in their "quest" for knowledge of my life) Then it's the whole university and that things get harder and harder. Well no shit sherlock. This kind of information is kind of beaten into our skulls by the age of 5. Normally ending in an emotional grasp for my conscience, I suppose, about that they know I can do better, and that if I do well, I can go and do what I want. This normally includes introduction of what I want to do when I get out of uni, and that how proud she would be if she could tell everyone where and what I'm doing, not say that I'm working at some retail store (oh irony says hi!). So there you go, future parents of poor, crazed and mentally insane children, an insiders view of a shitty parent-teacher interview, and how you should go about trying to convice your child into doing better at school.

Every now and again I can see two "easy" ways to getting out of listening to what my parents have to say. The first, finding a way to move out and continue my schooling by myself and not have any hinderence from my parents. I know I won't be able to achieve this, as I don't have a job that would last me to live by myself. The second, would be committing suicide (or some kind of haneous crime that will force me into a seclusion and not bother with my life). Hey, it may not be the easiest option, but by god things would end quickly. But wait you say, what about those around you who will be affected by it? I can only really think of a few people that will be totally affected by it (mostly my close friends), those I'd be the ones that would force me into not doing it. What about my family? Well, at the moment, and I'm sure my opinion isn't going to change any time soon, I could care less whether or not they miss or would mourn me.

As my yearly day dawns closer, people are beginning to question me about when my birthday is. Of course, I never tell them and because I'm sure a efficient liar (minus yesterday, hehe) they never really know when my birthday is. I can only enforce those who know my birthday who want to give it out, to not. I can handle a few people saying it to me quietly, but fuck sitting there and having everyone know when my birthday is. I know that the same thing is going to happen on my birthday, the same way that when I got my license. Basically everyone knew before I had the time to tell people I wanted to. Coincidentally, my birthday falls on the same week that my exams are on, so it won't be too bad, if I steer clear of people that I don't want talking to me during/after the exam.

Well, as it turns out, I managed to get today off because I was kind of feeling sick. Well, it was more like my bones and stuff were hurting really, really badly and I couldn't be bothered going to school. Normally when I'm home sick, it goes like: get up, have a shower, say I'm not feeling well, go back to sleep, sleep for about an hour or two (depending on how sick I am), mum would normally wake me up in the middle of my sleep saying she is going to work, blah blah blah. Then I'd get up after half an hour or something, go and watch TV. TV then becomes boring, so I go down and turn on the computer and play there. What else am I to do? Sit around and watch TV for 9 hours until my mum comes home and then I can do something else? No! TV ends up getting boring too quickly and I become uncomfortable on the chairs (they are too small for me to stretch out on), so I do the next viable option, go and play some sims 2 or counterstrike. My parents don't see it like that, they see it as I happen to get up only half an hour after mum leaves (I wonder why, she WAKES ME FROM MY SLEEP) and the computer seems to be turned on 15 minutes after that.

So the weekly argument about how much I do play on the computer (which is never much when I get time to do what I want to do) happens the moment dad comes home and finds me home from school. The instant that he finds out he thinks he is going to be all sleuth style and find out when I turned the computer on. I don't know what he thinks he is going to succeed in doing by finding out when I turned it on, maybe he thinks that I'll lie about when I turned it on. Never works, I normally agree with him about the time and ignore him until he gets sick of me not listening. Then of course, it's like a friggin' chain reaction from there. Because I wasn't at school, dad feels that mum should know I turned on the computer early and then she will be "disappointed" and shit like that, and then dinner will be a bitch because I have to sit next to my dad (don't have to, but it's my seat, and he chooses to sit next to me). Of course he will be more disappointed in me because I turned on the computer and was on the internet (welcome to the technological age, faggot). So things escalate from there, going from a quick dinner (as they normally are) to dad being "so" pissed off that he does the washing up, and because Survivor was on tonight, I wanted to watch that, but nooo, mum didn't want another episode like before. So I've officially given up on my family, and I couldn't care less whether or not they all die at once.

I know now that I'm not going to bother celebrating my birthday (with anyone, including my parents), because I know that the stuff that I've asked for from my parents (a dvd burner, and I was going to ask them for a new keyboard/mouse) is going to go to waste because they want me to have nothing to do with computers. So fuck them in the ass, I'll just work all the holidays (I know I won't, but I can pretend like I want to) and get money so I can buy it. Thinking about it now, I should "sabotage" my dad's computer into making it fail miserably (or maybe a hardware failure, like maybe a screwdriver jammed in the power supply..) and that he would be force into not being able to use the computer and he would have to rely on mine, and of course I'm going to say "get fucked" because I can.

I can see that other (real) people's view towards me is nothing short like my parents. My parents see me as someone that is constantly on the computer (to a degree that is true, but.. whatever, I don't have to argue why not) and that I know everything about anything regarding computers. This doesn't fall short to what other people think of me, I'm sure, because at school I'm the kid who other kids send to when teachers ask why something isn't working, or why they can't get into certain websites. As if I give a shit about your problems? Why do I want to be bogged down with your complaints about how the government runs their server? But fuck me, the majority of what I say to them is coming from my ass, or from google. So in other words, I'm just repeating whatever I've searched google for, normally their exact wording of their question. What is worse now, is that people have start to come to me for their music troubles, some questions I can kind of deal with, like what client they should use to get music, and I normally reply with the almost extinct P2P client KaZaa. Normally that will bait them away, but people that ask me about where I get movies from, shit me to tears. Jesus, have you people not heard of how google works? If you don't google how google works. Much easier than me trying to explain about torrents and IRC.

Take for example about the music. I can deal with a few songs here and there, you know, download some old kind of song (which I'd probably have anyway) and burn that and songs from another cd onto another cd, but when people start asking me to download a few hundred songs (yes daryl, this is you) and then expect me to drop everything I'm downloading then (which is normally nothing so far) or stop playing a game so I can use my internet and download you some songs. If they didn't have access to the internet or a computer then I'd have only a little regret about doing it, but when they have computers galour around, including unlimited dialup (not all that bad), then I get pissed off at me having to waste my time (and even study time) by doing it when they can. Now I'm the kid who can get certain songs off cds and burn it to a CDR for people I barely talk to anymore, all because I know a little about how to do most of it, and I'm sure if those with computers actually tried, they could google how to do something and do it themselves.

Well haven't these few posts been a mouth full, and I have a lot more to come as this year winds down to a complete stop. I can sense things becoming more tense around school and home as another year of school slowly dies into existence, but certain people are going to have to get over the fact that my moods can change in an instance and that things can turn from good to worse in a matter of milliseconds.

Today was an eventful day, too bad I can only really remember a couple of hours of it all. Let me see, school was the only real constant thing in my day, the boring, annoying piece of shit that it is. History started off with a bang, considering I found out that Ms Herrod thinks that I'm not my "usual self". I suppose I understand where she is coming from, but it's a fact of life, I manage to find a way to disturb and "dismantle" what people think of me in an instant. That I look at it, I haven't been "myself" for a while, and I think only a very rare few have noticed (makes life so much easier, doesn't it?), other than the people who barely read my blog, I think.. only two people have noticed. Well, not really noticed, but really, noticed that I haven't been my usual self. Hm, I suppose they noticed then. Recently I've been acting more out of key for myself to see whether people would notice and say something, and so far, only Nick and Terry have said something referring to what I've been doing. Rathering shocking that only two people have said something. Concerning Ms Herrod, maybe she thinks I'm becoming suicidal. I only think that because of the way I've been explaining stuff about what happens at my place when something bad happens, and that it is always my fault and nothing else.

Anyway, I did some work on sunday, and it wasn't school work (damnit, further behind). Instead, I was helping around the house cleaning up the garden. Well, it was more like cut like 3 trees down, and I mean big trees that were in the ground and were heavy. Next I had to help dismantle (more like destroy) a pagola (I can't spell it) which had been standing for ages, only to make room for our new drive way where my car will go. Woo! So yeah, the trees that we cut down had spikes at the base, so it was a bitch to cut up, but still fun. I'm lucky, I only managed to come out with half a dozen cuts on my left hand. Of course, while doing that, I was trying to hurry up so I could go and get a IDE controller from Tech Chips which closed at like 2 pm, and we only finished at 1:30. Needless to say, I had to get money and race to nightcliff in a hurry. I get some money out and I find out that the bitch that my dad calls a car had no fuckin' fuel left, so I had to waste money on filling it up so I could get out. Grr on that.

I managed to get out there at like 2:10 only to find out that Tech Chips doesn't open on sundays anymore (their front door looked a little smashed in, so I suppose some customer got angry). I did manage to get an IDE controller, so all was not lost. So I wasted the rest of my money on paying off my amp at Harvey Norman. All doing this while driving by myself (go me!) and listening to kickfm loud. Fun fun fun. Though, seeing as I didn't have any lunch before I left, I decided to go for a drive into the city and by some maccas and drive around the city slowly, as to piss off any drivers around me. OH! I managed to nearly make another car crash though. I was driving at the back street of the city (the one closest to the water) and some car was behind me. I was only doing like 40km/h (I was eating food alright) and the stupid bitch behind me wanted to pass me. As she started to drive up behind me, I started to get faster and faster so she had to go like 40 times the speed limit (gg hyperbole), I only really did that because there was another car coming the other direction, so she was to either slow right the fuck down, or speed up like a speed demon to pass me. It was all in good fun. That whole exercise was for me to get my other hard drive running (oh and for me to go driving), but still, I succeeded in both! If you care, I now have 1/3 of a terabyte hard disk space (335GB).

So today at work, I was kind of the odd one with nothing really to do, but I felt like I was in an upbeat mood (that and there were some pretty hot girls at Kmart tonight), so I tried my best to help people out, though I could never really be happy about it. Anyway, near the end of the night, I was chosen to clean up the last few "stray" palettes out the back, which consisted mainly of chocolates and christmas stuff. Not too hard, up until I had to do the dog food. Now, before I continue, picture the bottom of your bin after it had something really meaty and old and chunky and the bin had been cleaned out. Now you see those maggots at the bottom of the bin running (I choose running, because I can see the maggots run) around trying to get food. Now, Carol (my manager) that there was an off dog food container at the bottom of one palette (I could smell it a mile away). When she meant off, she meant that the thing had exploded causing millions of ants and a whole bunch of maggots crawling around the bottom of a slab of dog food. Now replace the mental image of the maggots in the bin, to maggots on top of a slab of dog food with my feet moving one box away. EWWW. The smell was.. WOOFT. The instant I removed the top slab, I saw the maggots and I could taste their foul stench. So I was chosen to be the maggot cleaner and move the "good" dog food into a trolley, and chuck out the rotten stuff. Originally I was going to do it by hand, but Carol suggested that I used the gloves, and I decided that was a better option. Thank god for the gloves, because the cans were absolutely soaked in mouldy dog food and maggots, so fuck picking that shit up without gloves. I know that it is going to take me months before I can regain my sense of smell and taste, because I know I'm going to be constantly smelling the dog food and maggots for a while (well, I lied about the taste, because I had dinner about 15 minutes later).

Wooo, I've given you a lot to digest, so I'll let you simmer over low for a while. In the mean time, I'm feeling kind of sick at the moment, so I'll try and exasperate it tomorrow morning and get the day off to do my assignments. Hopefully I'll be able to stay home and do some assignments. I know I'm not going to be able to come out and say, "Hey mum, I need a day off to do 9 assignments, thanks!" I know she will freak and make sure she knows I've done all of them, :grr:. Hm, there seems to be a sign saying "get off the computer and sleep" now, because my mouse is suddenly dying, and no, it isn't the batteries, as I've just tried some new ones. Donkey crap shit. Time for some sleep then!