It seems I'm going to be closing my blog. Lack of "readers"? Lack of content? Probably. Lack of stable webhost and domain name? Yes. I really can't complain about either of the latter though, I mean, they were both free and have done me well for the past 7 months. I want to be able to continue my blog elsewhere, but I don't want to have to use the blogger.com hosting. I mean, well, I just don't like having my own host and stats. I like the hosting that I have, but it's a shame it has decided to crap out on me near the end of the year.

There are a number of things contributing to the indefinite closure of my blog. As I said, my hosting has declined in it's performance. That, and that the domain exxnet.net is expiring the 26th of january. So I'm going to be without a real domain name. It's such shitty timing though, I mean I finally hit #1 spot for a google search of jarryd, and what happens? I shut the bastard down. Damnit.

I think I need to find a way to buy hosting and a domain name with my money. Hopefully I'll find a way pretty quick, other wise I might be stuck using the blogspot hosting. If I ever do find a way to buy the stuff I want, what domain name should I get? I was thinking of buying jarryd.net, but I dunno. Who knows, I might buy exxnet.net and another name for the fun of it. I've grown quite fond of my exxnet.net domain name. If I do buy a domain name, I was going to make it more than a blog site. I mean, I should put other stuff up there that would draw traffic, and I'm sure jarryd.net may not bring as much as I'd like it to. I might simmer on the idea a little while and get the idea in motion.

I will leave the site up until tuesday of next week, when I'll back it all up and remove everything. If I decide to move to the blogspot hosting, I'll add a link for it somewhere where people can click on it.

On a final note, never trust anyone.

Well, the moment after I posted my last post, I was sitting in from of the computer deliberating whether or not to play half life 2. I think it was a combination of boredom and.. well.. just boredom, that forced me to play it. When I think about it, it's taken me a fair amount of time to finish the game off. Well, other than the fact that it has only taken me 15 days to finish it, and I'm yet to finish the first game. I must have thoroughly enjoyed the second one much more than I do the first one. Don't get me wrong, they are both great games, but I think half life 2 wins out over each of them. I have some screenshots of my gameplay, though the screenshots are taken every once in a while, and I started to abuse the F5 button near the end of the game. But oh well, I think there are lot of good shots in there.

Well, you people suck at commenting. It might be the fact that I haven't posted any comment worthy posts for a while, but you learn to live with that. Anyway. I've only realised that my desire to have another webhost and domain is slowly disappearing. I've only just realised that I can't transfer any money over to paypal so I could buy stuff with my paypal account. Well, it might be the fact that I can really only "add" chequing accounts and credit cards. I have neither. I have an account that allows me to transfer money using a BSB number, but nothing else. Damnit. Well, I haven't really looked at buying things yet, but I'm quite sure the companies where I want to buy stuff don't have that kind of feature. It's either, credit card or paypal. Grr damnit. Hopefully I can use my account somehow to buy those things. I know I'm going to be able to buy computer parts though, so whoo!

All kinds of excitement happened on friday. First off, we had the "biggest" storm that night. Of course, I had no idea at first because I had my music up loud and I was playing a game in my room. Even though I'm only a metre away from my window and I didn't even have the curtains closed, I should have known it was raining. But I didn't. It wasn't until I felt the curtains whack me in the head, and hear the phone ring until I realised that it was hammering down with rain. Well, I'm not that oblivious to what was happening outside, I knew it was going to rain, but I had no idea whether or not it was going to hit then or later on. Well, it had hit. It also hit the main power for half of the NT. By the time the storm got really lightning-ny and thundery I was outside watching tv waiting for something bad to happen. Well as it would, the damn power went out, right when the simpsons were about to start. Stupid crackwhore. Well, the first thing I ran to was my room, and it was a case of, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Fuck." I wasn't too fased about my main computer turning off (it's just a pain in the ass to get up and running when I turn it back on), it was that my other machine had finally shut off for the first time in 118 days. So now I have to wait another 117 days until I can beat that record.

Well, instead of the power returning only a few minutes later, it decided to stay off for another THREE HOURS. WHAT THE FUCK? How dare the power go off and let there be no power. How unfair was that. Well, that gave me a reason to clean up the leads and shit under my desk (so now it's a neat looking mess of cables under there now!). Well, not only did the power go off in homes and such, I found out yesterday that the power went off in casuarina and their generators decided not to say hi. I knew how hectic kmart was when the power went out, but I can't imagine a whole shopping centre in complete darkness. No backup lights or security lights or anything. So needless to say I think there was a lot losts in many stores that day.

I've been sitting here waiting for about.. 2 hours (there abouts) waiting for my mouse to return. And so far, the bastard is still recharging. Also, my freshly made bed looks really comfy. Whoosh!

Well, I got my report yesterday morning. In the mail. I went to get the letters in the morning hoping to see something from australian credit union and all I found was a letter from my school. There were a few other letters there, so instead of me opening it, I put it at the bottom of the pile and put them on the table. I didn't really want to look at the report, so I was just going to wait until mum went to work so I could open it. Well, it didn't work out that way now did it? When she left, I went over to the table and I found the thing missing. What the fuck. Well crap I thought, she has taken it to work so she could open it and fester (I suppose, can one fester over something so little?) over the report and find something to say when she got home. Honestly, I was expecting to fail at least 2 classes, just pass math and pass the other three classes with little trouble. Well, I was right about english, legal and history, as I got a 16/20 for each class. Which, compared to the first semester report is an improvement. You see, I like those classes. Now math I knew I was going to get an 11/20, which, is probably above average for what others got in the class (other than the ones that studied). Chemistry and biology were always going to be grey areas for my report. Well surprise, surprise I passed them, only just though. Amazing. Either I had done really well in the chemistry test as I had failed (only just though) every other test throughout the semester. And well, biology was just getting boring.

I know the reactions for my parents off the back of my hand, and yesterday was no exception. It goes something like, they read the report, decide on what to say in "private" (which normally consists of them outside on the verandah or something similar), while I'm inside watching tv. Then they walk in with the stern look on their faces and they sit down opposite to where I'm sitting. Blah blah blah, they give me the report to look over and then they delve into the whole "it's a good report, but I'm sure you can do better" lecture. It wasn't as long today, it might have been the fact that for half of my report were high B's. Then dad had the balls to say that I can do better in all of my subjects. Fair enough to say, I did only just pass three subjects, but instead of saying all of the subjects, maybe only say that I should do better in the ones I kind of only passed? Normally I'd just look at him and ignore it, but I kind of "snapped". He was saying that I'm only just scraping through some classes, and I said something like "Only just passing the hardest classes I take?" Well, it shut him up.

I swear, the moment the lights are turned off, or at least when it gets dark all the bugs decide that they want to start humping my monitor. Instead of humping the parts where the is black, or the picture isn't there, they decide to start humping IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SCREEN. So all I'd see is a giant (well, not really giant, but when the screen is white and the bug is black, it stands out) bug in the screen. Not wanting to squish it otherwise there will be bug gizzards on the screen, I try to flick it away. And all it does, it do a 180° turn and manage to get itself back in the middle of the screen. GRR. It's back. Someone kill it for me. Wait.. it flew away. ARGHHHH, IT'S ATTACKING MY FACE. WHAT THE FUCK BUG. Well, it seems that fiasco has finally ended. Yup, I've squished it on my face. So now all I have to do is get bug guts off my face now, at least it isn't in my view.

I'm so ashamed of myself, I've managed to nearly finish half life 2. And I've only had it for.. 17 days (or around that). Whyyyy. I've still yet to finish the first game, and I've nearly finished the second one? Damnit. I'm not going to be able to prolong the last 2 chapters anymore. Even hard isn't hard anymore. Maybe, I could stop playing the second one and play the first one again. Who knows, I just hope that I won't end up finishing this one before christmas. Honestly, I think I might. Hopefully I won't.

In the mean time, I've been talking with Zack about buying some hosting. Hopefully by this afternoon when the mail comes, I should be able to get access to my money over the internet. So do I go and buy a new domain name (I have no idea what to buy, someone suggest an idea and a name for me to buy) and some hosting or just a domain. I probably won't buy it straight away, but I've been meaning to since I had my account.

Well, I might go and sleep so I can watch the spongebob movie later on today.

Right about now, my eyes have decided that they are going to start closing by themselves. It feels as though my eyes are being rubbed really hard with salt. It only hurts to try and keep them open and it feels sooo good when I close them. Maybe it's a sign.. maybe. It could be many factors that my eyes are really hurting. Let me scroll through some of them: I've been awake for around 20 hours. I've had about 4 hours sleep in the past 24 hours. I've been at work for 10 hours. So really, I've been at work the half the time I've been awake. My first shift was an absolute bludge, other than the fact that I had to get up at about 4:30, it was still easy. I think, I spent about.. half an hour working in toys, just filling. Then I was dragged off over into sound and vision to help clean up the DVDs. That would be the best thing that would have happened. I was in charge of cleaning up all the cheap dvds that are on the racks just outside the area. So, I had to make sure that all dvds have their cover facing out, and make sure that they are all nice and pretty looking. Presentation. In between trying to do, I was called around the store more times than I think. I mean, crap, I'm trying to finish something that would take about half an hour (there were a lot of dvds there) and all the managers are doing are interrupting me. Oh well, I had fun doing what I was doing. It was better than doing what I would be doing 8 hours later.

I was really tired though, normally - well.. more like last week - I can handle the early starts without sleeping. Well fuck me freddy, I had half a sleep yesterday though. It wasn't really a sleep, it was more like cable dropped out in the middle of the movie and no one else was home. Ew. Despite my mind thinking other things, I was lying on the chair and all of a sudden I'm in the state where I'm asleep, but I'm still awake of my surroundings. This was at like 3, just before I was suppose to get up and get ready for work at 4. What the fuck boy, *slap*. I think I was like that because cable was out and I was really comfortable, and that it was fuckin' hot. Haha, I woke with a start when cable came back on. I was watching charles angels 2 (more like full throttle, am I right?) it was up reasonably loud. When it when out I hadn't bothered to turn it down, so it was just sitting there kind of loud. Of course I was sleeping until the bastard decided it wanted to return, right about the part when some kind of creepy door opens really squeakingly. It was like, EIIHHHHH-SCRAAPPPPPPPP-THUD. It was kind of funny, until I realised that I had fallen asleep for about 5 minutes. Where is my will power damnit.

It was a time of reminsicing today at work. Well, I think it was for me at least. Oh, before I reminisce. I found out what happened to the power at kmart on friday. Something had happened at power water (which is what I so cynically said to someone when it happened) which caused the blackouts to certain parts of darwin. It seems only kmart was "affected" by it, anyway. So the generators kicked in because there was no power. These generators, according to peter (the store manager) run for like 15-20 minutes, which they were doing as for a while all the lights were fine. This was all fine until the power came back, but it was only.. half there. I suppose they were underpowering the store, but the power was still there. Of course the generator was unable to distinguish between the amount of power being inputted, so it kicked in again. Again, according to peter, the store needs something like 400watts to run (which is.. fairly small.. I think, someone correct me on that) and the generator puts in that much power, and with power water underpowering the store, that equates to about 600watts of power (or peter said it was about 800watts). I think I missed out on a lot of things when that happened, either I was out the back, or I missed it completely, but according to people in apparel, the eas (security gates, for "secure" items) were sparking and stuff. So the store was about to explode if any more power was going to be put in there. I can only imagine it now, all the lights (which have only just been replaced mind you) exploding. ALL OF THEM. That's over.. a lot of lights for a big store, that's one giant explosion. WEEE!

So on with the reminsicing. Whatever happened on friday, but it must have blow up the computers in the photolab, there were a guy there standing there fixing them. At first, I just walked by not giving the guy a second thought, on the way back though, I noticed that he was from tech chips. Ironically, it was my old manager from tech chips (some more irony, his name is also jason..). Instantly I recognised him, and I wasn't going to stop and say hi. But I knew he recognised me because he gave me the "look". Not the gay look, but it was the "I know you from somewhere but I don't want to say hi incase I'm wrong". I wasn't about to say hi either, seeing as I was dismissed from tech chips nearly a year ago for no reason at all. He probably thought it was really funny, seeing as I've officially backpedalled in the retail business. Oh well, I'm making money for what I do and I'm not overally uncomfortable about it and those I work with.

I decided after my first shift that I was going to find out how to use internet banking with my account where all my money goes. I think I didn't have to do anything, other than state a questions, and confirm that I live where they say I live. Simple as that I suppose. So in about "3 working days", which means about a week, I should be able to use my money that I make at kmart, over the internet! Hooray! Well, right now as I turn around on my chair, I see my untidy bed and it looks really enticing. Amazingly, I'm not as tired as I was when I first started to write this, so I must have gotten used to the bright shining light I call my monitor. And oh, head over to Andrew's blog and see what kind of UAI he got for his work! Yay Andrew!

What better time to blog when I don't have a mouse (it's recharging). I was going to start this last night (well, it was more like just after midnight), but my dad decided that when they got home from some party they went to, and they went to bed, I should go to bed aswell. It was only 1am, who really cares, I was going to go to bed anyway. Oh well, I didn't care, it was late anyway. I was lucky that I got off the computer downstairs when I did though. I had only just finished there, had enough time to go and get some ice cream and eat it before they had come home.

Anyway, I had work yesterday. Yep, it mean't I had to get up around 7 to be ready and go to work by 9. I was so hoping that it wasn't going to be too hard during the day. Well, technically it wasn't all that hard, except for the fact that whenever one customer would come, three other ones would be standing there waiting. I was working in the backdock. I've been there one other time and that was on a friday afternoon/night, so it wasn't as busy (or as hot). But yesterday I was doing 9 'til 3 and of course everyone decides to come and pick up their heaviest layby when IT'S HOT OUTSIDE. God, the amount of people wanting bamboo frence shit was amazing. Now those things way a tonne, and when someone comes along and asks for 14, I have to find the key for the crate, open the almost impossible doors, and then squeeze past another bunch of bamboo stuff that no one buys until I get to the ones that they want. I think, I spent about 10 minutes outside at one point and I was already sweating like anything.

In between customers coming along and asking for the stuff that's packed away in some kind of inaccessible area that we have to find a way there, I got to listen to a lot of conversations while I was out there. It is amazing how many staff don't like each other. I was kind of in the middle of it all too, because I was out the back where all the stock gets brought in and where the majority of the store managers have their little conversations, I could just sit there and listen. Such exciting times. Oh! Even more exciting was just near the end of my tea break. I was sitting in the tea room reading a book when all of a sudden, BANG, there goes the lights. Either something bad happened, like a giant thunder storm made it's way in a matter of 2 minutes from where I saw the outside to when I was sitting down, or there was some kind of terrorist attack. The lights stayed off for about 15 seconds (enough time for me to realise that the lights were off and I couldn't read my book anymore). I wasn't too sure whether every other light in the store came on, or in fact whether they were still off. But the instant that happened, all the managers were called out to the front of the store. Instantly I knew something was wrong (haha at that though). So I didn't move, only because I still had 5 minutes left of my tea break. Just as I finished my mars bar, I was called out to the backdock, so either something terrible had happened, or there were a lot of customers out there. Instead, I find out that they didn't know whether or not I was on a 15 minute tea break. FALSE ALARM DAMNIT.

Oh and alarms! I think the store stayed in security lights for about 15 minutes, then all of a sudden, some decide to turn back on, and then a giant alarm starts screaming out the back. While this was all happening, I was doing something in the midway, and all I hear is an alarm. I had no fucking idea what it was, and neither did the majority of the people in the store. I think I heard a pair of old women say "Is that an alarm?", "Yeah, probably". What the fuck. I think if I heard an alarm in a store, and it being as loud as it was, I'd be like, bye! And run off. I wouldn't stand there only to find out that the whole store was going to come crashing down or something to that extent. The alarm was loud enough to be heard clearly at the front of the store, now I could only imagine what the thing would sound like up close. Well, I had to go out the back once I finished where I was, and god that thing was ear piercing. You could not hear anything while you walked infront of the siren. Now why the hell would you have an alarm that loud damnit. I mean, if it was an emergency and people needed to speak or something like that, they'd need to scream into each others ears, or write it on a piece of paper ("WE HAVE TO GET THE FUCK OUT"). Whenever I walked past the alarm though, it felt like each of my ear drums were expanding to five times their original size, but it was alternating. So one ear would do it, then a split second later, the other one would do it.

Well I'm starting to get bored now. Bored, hot, and hungry. Hooray, the worst thing to be on a saturday!

Well work last night was fairly easy. It wasn't overally easy though, it was more of a pain in the ass to begin with though. Because it's christmas, and the store is open until 7 (it's open until like 10 the week before christmas) we aren't allowed to bring out pallets of stock to be broken down. So we either have to do it outside - where it's hot (you sweat just standing out there) - or we do it in the backdock, where it is even worse because there is absolutely no room to move out there. Besides the fact that we can't do what we normally do, things were fairly easy. I was kind of helping bring out stock when we were able, but even trying to do that was almost impossible. There were so many customers on the floor, I was having a hard time trying to move around with people just spaced out enough to not be able to cut in front of them. Damnit, they should all stop shopping at 5 so I can work easier. There wasn't much stock to be brought out anyway, it seems that there isn't going to be much to do while the store is open late. Oh well, means less work for me. The less work part was established when we had our tea break though. Because I worked 6 hours, I was suppose to have half an hour for my tea break. Well, tim and I went off to kfc (god that place sucks, but their chips are nice) and we spent probably half an hour waiting to be order. And hah, when we were finally served, I asked for a "large and small chips" and the girl that was serving me had the "emptiest" look on her. Well, it was more like "what the fuck are you talking about, we don't serve chips here" look. So I just gave her the look of death and waited for her to say "what". Didn't take her too long, I don't know whether she was incapable of doing more than 2 things at once (thinking about two orders in the one sentence and putting them in) or that I had confused the hell out of her. Oh well, she was stupid anyway.

Anyway, we were suppose to only have half an hour, and seeing as we left about 7 to get some food and we had come back about 7:30, we offically had no time left. Instead tim, jason and I sat in the tea room talking (it was more like jason and I were teasing tim and watching him become all aggrivated) until about 8:10. So, in other words, we wouldn't have been sitting in there doing nothing if there was literally nothing to do elsewhere. I "enjoyed" work though, I was having fun insulting tim, and I think jason found out that I'm funny when I can be. It was good that I made jason, and some other guy that was sitting in the tea room with us, laugh. So it was all fun and games until we left to go home. I suppose I was doing it because I haven't spoken to the majority of people I insult with ease for a while, and I wanted to see whether I could still do it with a straight face. So I think I reassured myself, and set some humourous "levels" between jason and some of the other people at work. It indeed was a good time at work, amazingly.

Other than work, I felt like I had done nothing yesterday. I swear it felt like I got up, sat in front on the tv for like 2 hours, had breakfast, played some half life 2 and then managed to go to work. Either days are becoming smaller, or I'm getting up later and later every day. It must be that it's hot and I'm becoming delerious. I think we should get air con for the whole house, and wherever else I go. Today is going to feel like it's going forever though, I suppose that's a good thing. Well, later on today I have work at like 9 until 3, so I'm either going to be really tired when I wake up, or I'm going to feel like shit. These late nights don't help me too much when I have work early in the morning. In all honesty, I think having less sleep makes me more awake. If that's possible. I mean, I always feel more awake if I have next to no sleep. It may also be the fact that I wake up by myself and not having someone wake me up. I feel more tired if someone tells me to get up. I have no idea why though, it's always the worst. I think later is going to be a "feel like shit because someone else woke me up" day.

Grr. It's so annoying when I'm trying to blog around midnight. Because I haven't slept since yesterday morning, I still think it's yesterday. I won't think it's that late, but when I think about it, being up around midnight is really late. Specially when I'm sitting in front of my computer blogging. Oh well, I try my best to be grammatically correct whenever I blog, not like it makes much point though, barely anyone reads my blog. Another reason as to why I should do something else with my site.

One last thing, when I was leaving work today, I got into the seat and I just happened to look over at where the coons normally sit, and I see some little green (it was some darkish colour, but green sounds good) hyundai excel drove down the up ramp coming from kfc. When I saw the car before I got in, I saw it was going to drive straight, then changed their mind like half a second before they were about to hit a wall. Anyway, so I was looking around when I see a torso sticking out the window (it was more like an arm, and a head) and they were waving. I have no idea whether they were waving at me, or someone in the line of vision they were looking. I don't think it was the latter though, as when I looked around after, there was no one there (gasp!). Anyway, when I saw them waving at me, the first look that I think to do, is a "who the fuck are you" look, then I decided to play along with their friendly-ness, and I gave a "oh, I now know who you are, so I shall wave and smile a bit" look. I didn't see them after that, so either they knew me, or they think they knew me. Mazeltov.

Well shit, it seems like it's already tomorrow. I think it's about time I play some solitare until I win then go to sleep.

I had the weirdest dream this morning. Normally I don't have dreams, and when I do, it's when I'm tired or hungry. I think it was a combination of both this morning though, because when I got up, I was really hungry. Hungry enough to have breakfast I suppose. A nice big bowl of some honey nut cornflakes.. mmm.. now I'm hungry. Anyway. Some dreams I remember days after I have it, other dreams I forget it the instant I try to remember what happened. Really weird. So, I have no idea how my dream started, it was like I flicked over to one of the movie channels on cable and I've caught a movie in the middle of it and I've just started to watch it. I was for some reason in some airport and I had a bag on, it look like one of those small bags that you always see backpackers wear. Not the massive ones, but the small ones that they wear with important stuff in it. Next, I find myself sitting down and I'm talking to two people (I'll leave their names out.. for now), I know who they are because I went to school with them. And I end up finding out that they were going to the same place I was going, sydney. The only thing I remember about the airport was that it didn't look like darwin airport, it was as if I was in sydney airport, but I was taking a plane to sydney. Weird. Next thing I know I think to myself that I should better check the ticket and make sure that I was thinking of the right time that the plane left. I realise that we were not only in the wrong place, but that the plane was going to be leaving in a matter of minutes. My got, reminiscent of what happened when we were in parkes the other month. Too bad though, because the moment that we were running through to our supposed terminal, I wake up to find no one home, the phone ringing, and it was friggin' hot. Fuck. I wanted to find out what happened. Oh well.

God, it has been hot all day today. Not only today, but this whole week has been nothing but hot. Why can't it be 22°C constantly? That would mean that I wouldn't have to try and find other means to try and cool down when I'm playing some half life 2. Before today, we have 2 fans directed at the computer, or more so, where you sit. But they do absolutely fuck all when you sit there. You can only just feel one, and that's on a good day. I had to improvise today though. I wasn't going to sit down and burn up while I played, so I decided to find another spare fan and shove it basically next to me and turn it on while I played. Thank god for pedestal fans. It's not at all fun trying to do work outside when the average temperature is probably 35°C and the humidity 100%. That makes things shitty. It's like trying to work when there is a giant sun deciding to get HOTTER AS YOU DO STUFF. Damnit sun, hurry up and die off already.

I've been really "busy" this holidays. I suppose this being the first christmas where I have a job that requires me more often as christmas time goes on. I think I've said something in other posts about "productivity" levels and the star system that carol does. Anyway, I must have gotten my third star the other night (or day), because I got a movie voucher tonight. Hooray! She said that my productivity has "increased". So I am now an owner of a free movie ticket (not like I don't get free movies anyway.. I mean.. ssh..). Now all I have to do is go and use it before july next year. So who wants to go to the movies? Hm, what else. Oh, I was nearly going to be working from midnight sunday to 6, and then 4-10 on monday, but I thought that was going to be too much. I mean, I could have done the shift if I didn't have to do a lot of walking/running around the shop later that day. I know I wouldn't have gotten much sleep when I got home anyway, I would have got some sleep, but it would be a really crappy sleep. So I'm working 6-10 then 4-10 for the next few mondays. Or until the christmas season is over. Doesn't matter me too much, it just means I have to get up at 4:30 to be ready. I know I'm going to be making a mint during this holidays, it means that hopefully I'll be able to get my new computer parts earlier than I expected. Well, not too early, because I stilll owe mum like $400. Damnit.

The other night at work, I was called "the most considerate person" they know, and now that has me thinking. Does one continue on being "kind" (haha.. yeah) and considerate to hopefully one day get lucky (my god that sounds so depressing). Well, as far as I can see (from what the majority of girls I hear talking), it's about looks. Well, fuck me, I'm dead in the water there. Maybe I should just wait until the end of school or something like that. Unless it's like the ugly duckling story, things probably aren't going to get any better. Who knows, but I think at this point in time (unless something.. pops up.. HAHAHA..) I think it's a safe bet to just wait until I finish with high school and go elsewhere. Maybe it would be better if I become a batchelor for life. Who knows, it might have some perks to it. I dunno, I suppose I'll see what happens next year, or maybe even at the start of the year.

Well, let me be the official christmas counting down person. There is now officially 17 more days until christmas (well, really 16 seeing as tomorrow is nearly today). We aren't doing too much for christmas. Well, we are going down to my aunt and uncle's place, but that's going to be boring. Spending a couple of days at katherine where there is nothing do to (the place is full of coons, and running down coons is illegal..) is going to be exciting. A few things I'm looking forward to though, are the things that I've made mum buy me for christmas, so hopefully I'll get those down there (we "weren't" going to be taking many presents down because there won't be many presents for other people there, but who cares? They should get more presents if they feel left out). Though, if mum did buy the xbox, I don't think we'd be getting it down there. Anyway, someone take me up on the offer to the movies, because right now, I'm about to die of hunger (wee, no sense this is making). Time for bed I think. But damnit, there are still four more songs left in my queue-to-be-listened-to. *Gets in bed with headphones and listens*

Ow, my whole body aches. I suppose walking around a shop for 5 hours is the culprit, I just can't picture myself ever doing that for a whole day, non-stop, everyday for a whole week. Then having to do it again the week after. Either I'd have to get paid a lot of money, or become extremely fit in order to do it. But jesus, I got there at like 6 in the morning and there were people in there that had stayed there since the night before and had done what I do, instead they did it for a full night, non stop. Well there's commitment for you. I'd get really bored and tired of doing that for a long time. Not only that, but there were people in there that started when I started, and finished only just after the stored had closed. Christ, that's nearly a 13 hour day. Fuck that. No wonder a lot of people that do that are always crabby whenever I go into work and they walk by, or I ask them a question. I was kind of crabby with some people, but that would be because I got up around 4:30 and I had only just got to sleep around midnight. I wasn't doing too much yesterday, as I thought, it was basically the same shit I did on saturday. It did feel like the day would never end though. I felt like I hadn't done anything, though, it was trying to sort out things when they weren't in boxes, but individually, and placed here and there in a rollcage. But I got over it. Well, after work, I managed to find a new pair of shoes (they are like the one I have now, just a different colour.. there was nothing else there that I liked!) and mum bought me the new ministry of sound cd for christmas. Well, at least I'll be getting what I want for christmas, and not stupid things.

From the time I got home (which after shopping for stuff) was around 11, so I had around 5 hours before I had to go back to work. So what did I do? Go and play some half life 2, that's what! I was doing the whole nerdy gamer thing today too. I was playing the game in my half life 2 shirt. I felt special at that point. A good 4 hours playing the game, and I'm supposedly only just "cracking the surface" of the game. Which is good. I thought when I first was playing it on friday that after 4 hours I would be like 3/4 through the game already. I find out that I was only just starting the damn thing. Hooray for that. That means I'm going to be playing it for a while then. Much like the first game. I bought the first one like, three years ago already, and I've only just nearly finished playing it. How good can it get. Oh well, when I'm not playing hl2, or counterstrike: source, I'm trying to make the most of the internet.

Speaking of, I need to find something to do with the website. I will keep my blog here, but have something on front page. I can't just have a site dedicated to my blog, I won't get hits that way (not like I'm getting many now). I need to find something to put up that will attract people to my site. I can't make it so it needs users to function, otherwise it will fail miserably (for example, my forums, they are inactive, and have never been used, other than by myself and has been up there for.. 7 months now?). So if I find something, I'll need to find it that will generate traffic, or make it so it's interesting. Plus, I'm getting bored just blogging, photoshopping (when I can, and when I get some inspiration), and playing solitare and pinball. I need to find something to do when I go to my room. Someone give me some ideas on what I should be doing with the site.

Before I go, I've constructed a "plan" for what I plan to do with my computer/s and what I hopefully want to upgrade to. Click here if you are interested. Now I'm starting to hate the way that my chair is making me sit, so I might go and crawl into my bed and go to sleep, so until the next morn!

I'm really tired. Tired and bored. The worst two things to be on a weekend during holidays. I suppose I'm tired because I was forced to get up early on a saturday morning. Grr damnit. It's a saturday morning, I haven't been awake early on a saturday for a long time. Fair enough though, I got to get up and make money, so that is an addition to it. But still. Oh well, I suppose everyday in the holidays are going to be late sleeping (or early, depends on what time of the day, or day after it is) and late wakings. Hooray for that. But oh well, if I'm asked to work, I'd probably say yes, because that would mean that I'm going somewhere to do something during the day and get paid to do it. Not all things that glitter is gold.

Speaking of work, I said I'd work because I wasn't going to be doing too much work. Well, normally when I work, I'd be doing palattes of shit and I'd have to run around the store for like 5 hours. But today was more like, get a boxes and process them. Filling basically. Even better was that I was allowed to wear plain clothes, so I wasn't to be bothered by stupid people asking questions. Though I did get asked one question, only because I was sitting there with a trolley full of christmas hampers and I was playing around with the display of them. Who knew that customers would be smart enough to realise not all workers wear the kmart shirt. I think I scared the chick that was at the front desk when I walked in though. I had to work at 8:30, and the shop doesn't open until 9. Though, people were roaming the store earlier than that, but whatever. Anyway, so I walked through the half open doors inside the shop, and because I wasn't wearing my kmart shirt, and only my namebadge (which is hard to see when you don't look), the chick at the front desk gave me a really worried look. I mean, here is some guy walking into a store wearing plain clothes, before the store opens, what would have been worse for her, was that she didn't know who I was. So I ignored her and went to work.

It's the 5th of december and the shops were already littered with a lot of people. It may have been that it was saturday morning, and I had never been there on a saturday. But still, there were shit loads of people. No wonder I wore plain clothes, there were a lot of stupid people there. Ha! Speaking of, I was standing around looking for some toy thing on the shelf, when I heard some woman say "we have to find someone that works here, now". By god she sounded angry. I quickly hid my namebadge and walked off and waited for her to leave to continue my work. I wasn't ready for some angry woman to scream in my face at like 9 in the morning. I seriously would hate if I had to work there during the day, everyday for about 8 hours. I mean pfft on that, I'd get so pissed off at all the people coming and abusing me. Like this one woman that was at the front desk abusing one of the managers. Of course I stood around and listened to her babble on (I was waiting for a key.. really..), but I got the idea that she had tried to pay off some layby and that there was a queue there a mile long and she didn't have time to wait for it, but she had time earlier on to get some kind of haircut (she had a whine about it taking too long, I laughed at her misfortune) Who cares woman? Seriously, if you have to wait, wait, otherwise come when it wasn't so busy. Or maybe don't come back at all! YES! Get the fuck out of kmart and darwin forever.

The walk around casuarina wasn't any better. Well, for one, I didn't have to do it in my kmart shirt, and all I had to do was take off my namebadge to look "normal". I was going to wear my sexy half life 2 shirt there, but I thought that would only announce that I was a nerd. Anyway, there were ten-fold the amount of people in casuarina. Have these people not heard of losing their life and staying at home and sleeping on a saturday? Nooo, they had to be walking around casuarina being fools and taking up space. I'm sure they have better things to do. Much like the security. The one guard at kmart looked like he was completely smashed, not that he was walking around all stupid like, but his face had a "I'm-completely-smashed" look on it. Besides the stone security guard, there were more retarded-looking people wandering around casuarina. I was one of them only because I had to go out look for shoes (ended up in a complete mess, darwin is such a shithole). Instead of really looking for shoes (the onle good shoe shop in darwin is swarming with kids that want to be "hip" and "cool" and is very generic - or really, everyone is wearing the shit from there - stupid city beach monopoly!) I kind of spent the half an hour I had before I left just wandering around going in shops, looking at one or two things and exiting only seconds later. I'm sure I pissed off a lot of shop-people, because I'd walk in a shop, play with something, acting as if I really want to buy it. Even having the "thinking" face on, and then leaving. Hehe. They would have gotten over it. Originally clair was suppose to join me in my efforts to find some shoes, but I didn't find her until I was about to leave and by then I had already searched a whole two shops for shoes. In the mean time, I had found more christmas presents for mum to buy me. Well.. actually, it's more like a cd, I can't remember what else I saw that I wanted, but all I know is I'm going to have to convice mum into buying the new ministry of sound cd (it includes a dvd with video clips!).

Coincidently, I'm going to be working from 6-10 and then 5-10 on monday, so I'm going to be absolutely stuffed come tuesday early morning. Right about now my eyes are starting to hurt. Maybe I should eat this mentos that I have left over from my shift.. mm, it's starting to smell really good. I shouldn't eat them and save them for my early waking on monday. Damnit, I have to get up at 5 to be at work by 6. I so hope that I'm going to save lots of money only so I CAN SPEND IT ALL!

Well, I've come to the stark realisation that I'm going to be crucified when my school report gets here. Thinking about it though, it doesn't seem all that bad, I may only fail two classes, but it still isn't very good. I may not fail biology though, if my assignment was accepted (which I handed in around.. 7 weeks too late.. hehe) and I got more than 75% on it, then that would get me up to a C. That isn't including the exam, and I think I did pretty well in the exam, which wasn't all that hard. Chemistry I'm quite sure I failed. I didn't do some major assignment (which I think was brought up way too late. It was suppose to have been done on the last week when I should be studying for math). Hopefully I didn't fail. But they are the two classes I don't know my marks (to an extent). I know I didn't fail math, english, history or legal. I'm quite sure I'd be getting a 16+ for legal and history, I wasn't too sure about english though, but ms pikoulos said that I was passing, and math, I was getting an 11, but that is what I get for not studying, or doing nothing in class. Maybe those marks are telling me something? Should I go onto something to do with english, history and legal (which really have everything to do with english) seeing as I was passing those with ease. Or maybe I'd be passing everything if I actually studied and not just bummed around in class. Maybe paying attention to the teacher and writing down notes (I managed to bum around and write down all the notes from every class, I just never read them) helps when I'm at school.

So after what I did earlier this morning, activating half life 2 and all, I was extremely prepared and set to play a whole day of half life 2. Well I went down just before lunch to start playing, and guess what. The fuck still wasn't ready to play in offline mode. Fuck I was pissed off. I wasted all last night downloading drivers and spending probably half an hour to "activate" the bastard. I was like.. grr.. it wasn't a very pretty sight. Because dad had taken the modem, I had to resort to dialup to activate it again. I wasn't hard-pressed to set dialup back up again, but it was the fact that it registers on ozemail as a dialup connection (it always does, but that is for every 24 hours), and this one would show up as an hour between 11-12 downloading about 10MB. Well, initially I thought I'd be on there for a few minutes. It started off being a minute, up until it had decrypted files, and it decided that there was an update to take place. DAMNIT, I was hoping that this update would only be like.. readme files or something. But no! It had to be updates that would take over half an hour (on dialup mind you) to download. Well fuck that. Dad is sure to notice an hour of dialup activity when he decides to check the usage. So I had to force myself to cancel the update and I disconnected. Yes, that's right. PITY ME. I was forced to wait another.. about another 6 hours to play half life 2. Damn it more to the depths of hell. I think I spent the rest of the day listening to music loud and playing some half life (I had to prepare myself :-P).

Speaking of music, I never knew how loud my music was full blast. I had some LAB4 playing while I doing something outside (I think I was getting the letters, or something to do with walking to the front gate and coming back only moments later). Before I go on, my room faces the street, not a direct view of the driveway (that was my old room), but a slighty skewed view, so only I can see people, and they can't see me. I could still hear the music (and the bass mind you) from outside of my room, down a whole level. WEE! This was the first time I turned it up loud and happened to be outside listening to it. Gosh! I really felt sorry for the silly wogs across the road from us that turn their tv up at about 3 in the morning. Oh wait, no I don't! I wasn't too game in walking out any further to see whether you could hear it clearly anywhere else. But still, I think that is an accomplishment from four speakers and a sub. Go go my amp.

I had to wait for ever for dad to come home tonight though. Normally he would be home around 5:30 to 6, today he decides to turn up around 6:40. What the fuck mister? So the instant he walked in the door, I was like, where the hell is the modem! What would have taken over half an hour on dialup, took like a minute on dsl. Thank god for fast internet. So I was running half life: source by 7. That was only to see what the original game was like on the new engine, it didn't look too different, but then again, I was only playing it for like half a second before I quit and started to play some half life 2. From how much I played before we went to get dinner (which was a whole 5 minutes worth) it owned. I could pick up bottles and all. I found it quite enjoyable. A five year wait (well, not including the 6 hours I had to wait for the internet) was paid off by 5 minutes of game play. I'm going to have more fun (that is if I can play it offline) tomorrow when I actually play it. I should get 5.1 setup for the computer downstairs, so I can play in a perfect atmosphere.

The time that I did get to play half life 2 was cut short by not only me having to go and get dinner, but the fact that jordan had a whine while I was in the shower about not being able to have a go. What the fuck bitch? Not being able to have a go? I WASN'T ON THERE SINCE YOU GOT HOME (I was too busy mentally hurrying my dad up). Then of course dad got on the opposite side that I was on, and said that I was on there all afternoon and even when he got hom. I think I lost it at that point, and kind of said that jordan had all afternoon to play and she didn't, and that I wasn't on there when he got home and that I was sitting (more like laying down) on the lounge chair (well.. it is called a lounge chair) watching tv. Of course my outburst pissed him off because I was right, and so he said for me to go down and "turn the thing off" so that neither of us could play. Well fuck him. I kind of did that, didn't speak to him for the rest of the night. I did made them eat my loud playing of half life: opposing force. So you can imagine at around 9:30 at night loud gunfire coming from my room. Hehe. Serves the fuckers right for not letting me play some half life 2.

Well, I have nothing else left to do and seeing it is nearing tomorrow (and the fact that my mouse has been on charge for about an hour already), I'm going to sleep.

Well this is a late post. Or should I say an early post considering it is like 1am. It's been like, a whole 5 days since I last posted, it could be that there was nothing to post about, but oh well. Not too much has been happening lately, I've had nothing to do while I'm at home, only because there is nothing to do, and dad still takes away the modem. That is also the reason for why I'm blogging so early in the morning, I'll explain later on. Hm, so what has happened recently.. well, not too much. I can tell that I'm going to be running out of topics soon, and that I will ramble on about the silliest things. Shit happens.

I hate it when relations come around and spend like five hours sitting, eating, and talking about the stupidest things to happen, and my parents always expect me to be out there helping in their anecdotes in every little detail. Boring! I think I spent a whole five seconds with my aunt and uncle, and that was only when I was saying hi to them. Even then it was while I was sitting at the computer. Of course the first thing that my dad points out is my "surround" sound setup, I mean, I would have done it if they asked, but.. coh! I think I spent the rest of the day playing some half life really loud, not only was it fun, but it was loud.

I was speaking to clair the other day (on msn of course, I never see her anywhere else really), and.. well, how can I say this. It was a very enlightening experience for both of us. Wow, the first thing that pops to my head when I say that is "cyber sex". Anyway, I don't know whether it was that I probably won't see clair for another 9 weeks (or if she leaves, foreva!), or whether I felt kind of honest at that point in time, but the conversation kind of drew to my blog and about my attraction to katerina. I wasn't really too embarrassed (christ I hate that word) about what we were talking about. But yeah, I was being honest about it to people other than my blog, or to taryn. Yay for that! I think that will be as far as I go though, but oh well. I know when I see clair in person next time though it's going to be awkward, because we were being so honest about those we like/d that we said we liked one another at one point in time over the last few years (oh teenage lust, how fickle it can be). I know I'll probably get over the initial shock of honesty and get on with my life. It still felt good to talk properly to someone. I should do it more often.

I still think it is a wednesday, and I felt shocked when I hovered the cursor over the time to check the date and I saw the day was thursday. I think I need to sleep and wake up today before I realise that a day has gone by. Anyway, I went back to school to hand in a really, really late chemistry prac write up, and I think I timed it really well. Not the handing in process, but I timed it well so when I got there, the teacher wouldn't be in, so I wouldn't have to worry about trying to explain why it has taken this long, though I did have a plan worked out. I decided at the last moment though, to write on a post-it pad "ps. sorry", hopefully that will be acceptable. Oh well! The whole reason for why I did go back to school was so I could see whether or not I had enough money to buy Half Life 2. I was quite sure that I'd be like $10 short of $130, and that I would have to wait until next wednesday (when I get paid) for me to go and get the game, but fuck, I was looking forward to buying it then. I found out that I did have enough money and that I could buy it! Hooray! It's only been 15 days since it has been released! Better late than never I suppose. But when I went into EB to buy it, I found myself tongue tied when I asked how much they were selling it for. I knew how much it was ($129.95), but it was my sly ploy to buy the game, and not walk up and say "give me half life 2: collector's edition, NOW!" I'm sure the latter would have sufficed, but I'm more refined than that.. hehe. When the guy said that they may not have it in, I was like, fuck. You stupid whore bags can't be sold out now, it's been like 2 weeks since it was released, YOU SHOULD HAVE IT IN DAMNIT. But some other guy was there to say that there were some there on mail orders. So I was like, pheew. When he went out back to find it, he kept coming back to the counter with nothing in his hand, I was like, wtf boy? Where the hell is. I was kind of getting impatient, and the other guy that was there must have noticed, because he stopped what he was doing and said he knew where it was, so he'd get it. Maybe because that is what he is paid to do, but I'm very vain, so it was all about me.

When I got it, the guy asked me the funniest question (well, it's not really that funny, but I heh'd at it when he asked), he asked whether or not I knew about steam (it was the way that the company was releasing it over the internet, and how they catch out people with warezed up copies). I kind of gave him a hard glance and said yeah. He laughed and said that there were people buying the game and didn't know what the hell to do. Oh well, sucks to be them without knowledge. I mean, they bought the game, so they should know how the friggin' thing works. But oh well. So there I was, marching - by myself - through casuarina with half life 2: collector's edition. I felt all happy, until some stupid little asian baby like kid ran into my path and I knocked him over, and send him sprawling on the ground. I just looked down at the poor bastard (this kid was like, a year old) looked at the mum with a "watch where your fuckin' kid is" look, and I continued on. I didn't even bother to stop and help, but fuck 'em, I had just bought a game I'd been waiting for, they can help themselves!

So work was a little tedious last night (it feels so weird to say that when only last night was an hour ago..), and it didn't help that it started to rain when there was still pallets to be brought in from outside. So it's pissing down with rain, thunder and lightning everywhere, and here I am being yelled at by the store manager to hurry the fuck up and bring in the pallets. Damn fatty, I can only do so much with little room, and a pallet that weighs a tonne. Oh well, we did it, but the majority of the pallets were soaked, but it didn't matter. Right now, I'm walking like a god damn monkey (you put 2 and 2 together), but I suppose it's money. Now I have tomorrow to play some half life 2. Oh! Why I'm blogging this late: the only way to play half life 2, is to activate the game over the internet, and because I was working tonight, and dad takes the modem, I had no way of activating it before tomorrow when I wouldn't be able to do it until he gets home at like 6. Even then I'd be hard pressed to get on, because he'd whine, then jordan would whine, and I wouldn't get a go until after dinner. So I decided to wait until mum and dad were in bed last night and I went down to activate it. This was around 11:45, and the activating took forever. Even then, when I tested whether or not it would run, it asked for updated drivers. So I wasted another 5 minutes on downloading drivers all so I can play the game tomorrow. But oh well, I'm up at like 1 in the morning blogging so it's alright.

Oh, before I went to work, I decided to clean off my desk (fuck the thing was messy), and I decided to harness the powerful concepts of wireless. Well, it's more like, shove everything I don't use too often into a cupboard, and the other things pile up at the end of the desk. And because of my wireless mouse and keyboard, there are no wires at all (minus my headphones, but that's different), and my desk looks so empty! Of course I took photos to commemorate this momentous occasion, oh and my lovely half life 2: collector's edition box (and other games).